life`sz [hard] obstaclesz

on a down hill slope feel`sz like everythin i cum n2 contact
wit alway`sz end`sz up be`n da wrong da damn 2 cum n contact wit
i truly don`t know wat 2 do ne more im passed da term lost
feel`sz like i`m on a 1 way trip 2 hell [&&] i`m on da expressz busz at dat
nuff`n n life isz turn`n out da way i planned 4 it 2 turn out.!
so tired of hear`n every1 say oh ur jusz on 1 of da
many obstacle`sz course`sz dat u will face n ya life sick of dat shit 2 b pratically honest
i been down so long i doubt it if i eva start 2 make a rise i once told myself
dat if i don`t believe n me den no1 else will but i guessz every1 else`sz judgement
on me really got da best of me [&&] i let it take ova my own self esteem cuz now i`m feelin like i don`t even deserve 2 b here half da time.!
life basically fcuk`n sucksz no if`sz [&&]`sz or but`sz bout dat shit
i jusz wanna b happi like isz dat 2 freak`n much 2 ask 4 all i need isz
4 sum1 2 l♥ve me da way i l♥ve dem [&&] 4 me 2 really feel like im worth sumthin
on sum real stuff i feel like gum stuck on da bottom of sum1 old balled da hell up dunksz.!
now sure y life isz neva rite 4 me but i jusz wanna call it quitsz disz time around.!
sad 2 say i ha8 myself 4 everythin i am [&&] 4 everythin dat i have become [&&] prolli 4 everythin i will eva b or maybe not b
dyin seemsz like heaven rite now but i know datsz da easy way out neva been 1
2 jusz hit da border [&&] neva cum baq alwaysz stuck it out thru wateva but now i`m kinda pretty
much feelin like enuff of bullshit isz deff enuff bullshit :(
wanna ha8 every1 but i truly know it`sz not every1 fault y i feel da way i feel
but if i`m already ha8`n my self den who else isz there 2 ha8.?
isz it all my fault on y i feel da way i do
isz it my problem dat dyin isz da easy way out [&&] maybe i jusz wanna
take a dip down dat road.? it can`t all b my fault rite.?
no matta how i try 2 convince myself dat i know it is :(
prolli feel`n supa alone like no1 understandsz how it feel 2 b me [&&] alwaysz feel like a fcuk up uugghh
done wit it i can`t take disz no more cryin isz a sign of weaknessz
but i refuse 2 keep pretendin 2 b strong wen i know damn well im not at all.!