|missin u like hell|

da rain got my mind constantly on
ya sexy ass!
neva realli realized how much i truly
l♥ve u
+&
can miss u; til 2day!
sumthin was so diff! i saw ya face but it was for about 5 mins;
not tellin u i love u is wat i really miss da most
+&
seein u smile
+&
hearin u tell me u love me
+&
lettin u touch me
+&
layin next 2 u
+&
kissin u
+&
watchin dumb movies
+&
videos
+&
bustin on ppl
is wat i miss secondly lol!!
wish i could hold ya hand
+&
run n da rain wit u rite bout now
yea honey i`ll even let go of da mutha fxckin
frizz control issue 4 u;
SUMTHIN MAJOR!!
cant keep from smilin even wen im jus
speakin of u 2 myself
ugh u have me totally love stoned
yea boy im all urs! ya love got me feelin
like fxck these otha niggas dey could neva
compare 2
KORNBREAD!!
my lover sumthin serious lol
wanna go 2 sleep so bad but i cant find it
n myself 2 do dat without hearin ya voice b4
i close my beautiful brown eyes aha!
i have officially gone smittens ova u kiddo
no otha could have me wit dis strange feelin but sum
PAGE STREET
negro!! wanna keep screamin
i love u karl
until da minute u hear me
+&
cum runnin 4 me! ugh but i so
already know dats not gonna work 4 me!
trustin u 2 not hurt me ;-)
i wanna finally believe that someone wont let me down each
+&
every time dey say dey wont!!
yea i completely understand dat were jus human beings
makin mistakes
+&
learnin from dem but trustin u does not feel like
1 of da many mistakes i have made n my life!!
u dont have 2 promise me u wont hurt my ♥
all i need 4 u 2 do is jus
PROVE
dat shxt 2 me ;-)
well honey im bout 2 call ya fone
+&
c if ur there which i doubt
den im layin down
+&
waitin 4 u 2 ring da doorbell or
call me; which i think wont happen!!



love u baby

A|L|O|N|E

finally tellin myself im worth much more
den sum words dat prolli
cant really b proved 2 b true
not dat im givin up on us
jus sayin im tired of bein da only
one who is actually tryin!!
trust is not n my vocabulary
i know nuffin of da word

really came 2 da conclusion dat i trust no one
ppl dat were neva suppose 2 hurt u
hurt me n da worst way possible!!


daddy;
kinda fxcked me ova since birth
supposed 2 have been here 4 me no matta
wat but i guess he jus couldnt do dat

mommy;
basically put herself 1^st everythin was jus
much more important den me! she kinda made me feel
invisble; like i would neva matta n life

brotha;
is my life but now im thinkin maybe he's not who i
actually think he was!
always promised he would neva hurt me
+&
let no one hurt me but he have yet
really lived up 2 his word!!
u say dont trip ova these niggas but
wat am i 2 do if i really am n love wit
dis nigga damn bam i need 2 know

grandpop;
was kinda da only person who i could eva count on
den he started turnin his baq on me like everyone else!
he confuse me not sure wat i really
mean 2 him!

boyfriend;
has my whole ♥ in his hands but
he knows wat 2 do wit it NOT
constanlly belittles me
+&
makes me feel like im crap
doesnt really know he does it but he does
dont know y i cant leave but
i jus know my ♥ wont let me
wen im away from him for more den a hour im
weak! so i wont even try 2 imagine life without him!
he say no one else matta but me
but wen he's around otha ppl i fear dat im da only thing dat
doesnt matta at all!!
trust me is all u say but how can i?!
u have ya own way of bringing me 2 da top of da
mountain den droppin my blaq ass rite baq down wit no bungee cord
always feel like ur gonna b da 1 who rescue me but wen
shxt gets real sumtimes i feel like ur all 4 yaself
u could give 2 shxts bout Dominique ;-(
dont understand y i love u dis hard
but all me
+&
my ♥ know is i jus do
end of story
y am i holdin on 2 sumthin dat u obviously want
nuffin 2 do wit?!
ugh really dont know but damn i jus wish u
help me understand wat it is u want from me
u have everythin;
♥
+&
body
+&
soul
+&
love

u own it all ya name is written on it
i want no one else but yet maybe u do!!
maybe ur too yung to know wat it is u really want
maybe ur too yung to settle down
i know ur a man
+&
u have needs but im always here 4 u


-alone but im alone 4 a reason
i cant trust no one!
family hurts u faster den anyone else n da world does
boyfriend walks all ova u like ur da ground
wanna show him wat it's like 2 not have
someone really always there for him but
feel like if i do dat im gonna permantelly lose him
+&
he wont think twice bout it!!


dominique;
u gotta learn 2 let go da things
dat u need da most r da things dat hurt u da most!
8teen no need 2 stress life moves on
cant always blame
mommy
+&
daddy
4 everythin dat goes wrong n ya life
yea dey fxcked up but now its time 2 move da fxck on
+&
get da fxck ova it;
easier said den done i know
brotha loves u no matta wat u think
yea he fxcks up but he wont eva let
anotha nigga hurt u no matta wat happens
grandpop will always b there 4 u regardless of wat
thousand of ppl will have walked n
+&
out of ya life wether pop pop is livin
or not he will always have ya baq!!
boyfriend loves u end of story
insecure but u need 2 trust him
im not sayin he wont fxck up cuz more den likely he
will hell he's only human everyone makes mistakes
+&
eventually learn from dem
not doubtin his love 4 u but not sayin its as strong
as he says it is!!
stop lettin him walk all ova u
make him c wat it would b like 2 not
always have somebody there ridin 4 him

i know u wont eva stop lovin him but maybe u need 2
slow down sum!!


-love is complicated no one ever said it would b dis hard
but at da same time no one eva said it would b easy at all!!
n order 4 love 2 b successfull it must know
wat it's like 2 have not succeeded
+&
if it makes out alive den its meant 2 b
but damn how many times must it try 2 fail b4 everyone can
see dat dis type of love is not meant 2 b broken!!
on sum shxt dis dat 4eva type of love



-love u so i wont give up
but i need 2 know u slightly
feel da same towards me!